Love's Confusing

This is for the guy who made me cry a lot of times and the cause of my confusions... I am only doing this because I think this is the only was to express myself, my thoughts and my problems. I am sure that my friends, especially the ones helping him, would listen... but then the world would know. They are not all good in keeping their mouths shut even for a while. I thought everything wouldn’t come to this point and everything wouldn’t change my outlook on things. There are things I want that are not found in you. There are things that prevent me from liking you… a barrier that divides us and bounds us from doing what we want. It’s not like I’m asking much from you. I’m not asking you to get into my expectations… the only thing I’m asking is for you keep your patience… It’s obvious that things are different in your mind. You were thinking that our friendship could grow into a deeper one because you think I like you… well its true… its noticeable in my actions… The feeling that I get when I’m with you is not the same as with the feeling I get when I’m with the others… Confusing isn’t it? But I think it’s because that I know you feel something for me, which is not plainly friendship. I’m not used to this feeling and I think the only way to deal with this feeling is to stay away from you. As what you’ve said, I’m “magulo”… and I think I am… I think it’s the only way to keep you distant from me. I’m really sorry if I’m doing this or I offended you but i think this is the only way to keep things straight. Before this ends, i want to thank you for making me feel special... You know the things I want; you know the things I hate… Sometimes, I may not have the words to make you feel better, but I will always be here to listen…